For better or for... uh sorry

I decided to post this entry though it no one reads it, including me... I rarely get on here.. but I want it for the record that I had to make some pretty hard choices this year, and I always put my husband and our two children first.  Well, my husband moved out in July this past year, though I am not ashamed to say, I begged him to stay.  Ugh... I don't recognize myself.  What happened to me I am thinking now?  My family had always been my priority and it got blown apart.  I've been shot through the heart... omg yes I said it.  Now I have to redefine what family means to me and how to save myself and my kids from so much heartache that a divorced family brings.  I wish they didn't experience it this early in life, but we will all get through it together.  I grew up in a single parent home and I have an amazing role model who did much more with much less.